Having a blog sometimes can be very interesting, sometimes – difficult, and sometimes – very exhausting. But what about two blogs at the same time? This is what happened to me.

One day in winter holidays I was sitting at home – the weather outside was horrible – and scrolled my Instagram. Suddenly, my ex-classmate’s post appeared – and I was surprised by the quality of her writing. I texted her with the compliment – and in response, she said that planned to open a blog for a very long time. I love lighting people up – so I did my best to outflank her fears and inspire her. Worked. She opened the blog a day after.  

But after the conversation, I started wondering, why I’m inspiring other people, but personally do nothing? I shared my thoughts with her – and now she did an inspirational part, suggesting me to open a blog. Worked. I opened the blog a day after.  

I started my blog with my own poems – and was ambitious about it. Existence of my classmate’s blog created the competition – I wanted to have more subs, more likes and more responses (I succeeded).  

The winter holidays flew by – and I found myself again in my university. The new subject started – and at the first lesson Yassemin announced that during the course we will have a blog. Boom! That was unexpected.  

You know, I’m very toxic to myself. I want everything to be perfect, original and beautiful. With such requirements, I was able to do maximum one post a week – but now I had to do 3-4! Of course, my blog started fading into the background – and now looked like Flying Dutchman, abandoned by its crew.

And you know what? That’s ok. Sitting on the two chairs at the same time is a very bad idea. So I maybe abandoned my blog – but this one flourished.  

P.s. My classmate’s blog also died after a few months of agony. She didn’t want to do “cliche” posts.